REHEARSING GOODBYE

Loss became so threatening that you learned to grieve relationships before they end, protecting yourself by experiencing the pain in advance 🛡️. This gives you incredible emotional resilience and the ability to help others process difficult transitions 💪. You understand impermanence in ways that make you wise beyond your years. But living in premature grief means you're always holding back, keeping emotional distance as protection against future pain 📏. You find yourself either gripping relationships too tightly or maintaining walls to avoid devastation. The way your family handled loss—whether in silence or overwhelming emotion—became your template for processing difficult feelings. You're constantly braced for the other shoe to drop, sometimes missing the beauty of what's actually happening right now because you're too busy preparing for when it ends.