THE OUTSIDER

Early in your life you experienced social stigma and discrimination. Others made you feel like you didn't belong, were less than, or were just too weird. But unlike other childhood wounds that are limited to specific people or time periods, this wound of unbelonging never really stopped—it simply evolved and followed you into adulthood through workplace and educational discrimination, social exclusion, and systemic barriers 🚧. Rather than keep chasing acceptance of people who never gave it to you no matter how hard you tried—you made a crucial self-worth decision: you stopped trying to connect with those who made you feel bad about yourself.

You've become an expert at spotting your people from across the room—fellow outsiders who carry that same knowing look 👁️ of someone who's been scapegoated, victimized and marginalized. There's profound comfort in relationships where you don't have to explain yourself or make excuses for your differences. Now you gravitate toward alternative spaces, subcultures, and communities where being different isn't just accepted—it's celebrated, and where you can truly thrive. Your tribe becomes your sanctuary, the place where you can finally exhale and be fully yourself without the constant threat of judgment or rejection.

But this protective strategy comes with significant relationship costs. You write off potential partners before they've had a chance to truly know you, and the ongoing nature of discrimination means your hypervigilance never fully turns off—you're constantly scanning for signs that even safe people might betray or reject you. At its core, your fundamental ability to form bonds and trust has been deeply impacted by this ongoing challenge—the very foundation of all intimate connections invariably feels shaky and precarious. The belief that "only people like me could love me" becomes a protective prison—keeping you safe from feeling like an outcast but also limiting your world to smaller and smaller circles. You might find yourself testing new partners, waiting for them to prove they're truly accepting of your difference before permitting access to your real self. The double-bind is profound: having been pushed to the margins by a world that continues to exclude people like you, you now end up marginalizing yourself by recreating the very isolation you once had no choice but to suffer.